Every single day of my life, I struggle.
Every single day of my life, I battle.
Some days I win, and some days I lose.. badly.
In a recent post, I mentioned the new gym I just joined and the importance of feeling good with the gym you go to.
For the past 3 days, I have been going to the gym TWICE A DAY. In the morning and then again in the evening.
Why? Several reasons.
One of them being, I want some fucking results.
Which I have been getting!
1. My body has become more fluid and flexible
2. I have SO MUCH energy
3. My tummy isn't bloated!!!!
4. I have much more endurance
5. I'm gaining strength and mobility
6. I'm more mentally and physically disciplined
With ALL of these incredible points to focus on, FUCKING STILL I looked in the mirror today and literally felt disgusted when I saw fat on my stomach. I wish I could describe the feeling of low self worth and how much it keeps me from doing SO MUCH.
I can't tell you how often this shit happens. How many self talks I need to have so that I don't break down. And the worst part, I believe the shit my brain says.
Why is it so hard for me to just love myself?
Why am I so angry and self-destructive?
I know I have a long way to go - MENTALLY & EMOTIONALLY.
I just wish I wasn't so hard on myself all the damn time. I'm literally putting HOURS in the gym... i deserve so much more love, appreciation, and gratitude. My mind and body are so delicate, I need to nurture them.
I am strong.
I am beautiful.
I am intelligent.
I am witty.
I am sweet and warm.
I am assertive and dedicated.
I am a leader.
I am powerful and confident.
I am sexy, AF.
I AM HUMAN AND DESERVE TO BE HAPPY!!!
Coño! Hasta cuando?! This is just the beginning.
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