#RealTalk. Dealing with infertility and running a professional services business can be tough. For those who don't know, our first IUI was canceled last Monday, because the clomid (I didn't want or necessarily need) worked "too well," and there was a risk of HOM (high order multiples for those not living in this world. As a side note, there are SO many acronyms).
My RE's decision to cancel our IUI left me crushed. I did NOT want to take drugs, ever. After long talks with friends and family, I decided to give ONE cycle a try. The #clomidwas AWFUL. Every side effect imaginable (so grateful for my acupuncturist Katie Beskin). Then, after all that, canceled.
I wanted to wallow, cry, scream, and sleep for the rest of the day (ha! On a Monday). Instead, I had one client going through a major acquisition, another selling some assets, and another needing to send a cease and desist (among other projects). Needless to say, my work as an attorney went on, and my clients required my full attention. Not to mention, my husband was away on a camping trip and wasn't set to return until a day or two after my appointment. He came back with SALMONELLA, but that's a different story.
What did I do? I had a great chat with a few of my closest confidantes, got my work done (it took my mind off the crappy news and actually made me more determined to deliver quality work), and got my hair did. It turned out to be just the right mix of work and self care to help me through the day and process the news. •
Even this week, the work hasn't ceased, and continues to go on. As I sit in my home office plugging away, I'm still experiencing the rollercoaster of emotions (likely due to the lingering effects of clomid). I keep reminding myself that it's ok to feel that moment of anger/frustration/grief/loneliness, but to remember that there are all kinds of people (doctors, lawyers, engineers, SAHMs, consultants, teachers, etc.) facing the same struggles. We're all in this together, despite not knowing each other. That gives me some comfort and keeps me moving forward.