I have a condition called IBS, Which stands for Irritable Bowel Syndrome. It’s directly caused from my anxiety. I feel such deep anxiety and stress that it effects my body’s ability to digest and let me poop. This condition, for me anyways, presents itself in many forms. Sometimes I’m constipated, or I have diarrhea, and sometimes I just have these cramps in the pit of my stomach. I can tell when I’m having a flare up.. because 1) It’s usually around a major life event and 2) I’ve had it for so long now that I can recognize the signs in an instant.
This time was caused by Chloe getting hurt the way she did. It’s not her fault, or anyone’s fault for that matter. Me and my boyfriend were just so scared of losing her and not being able to afford the surgery. I couldn’t eat, sleep, or poop without pain. I was in constant pain. Emotionally and physically.
I want people to know that this condition is hard af and that it makes my anxiety worse. Right now, I’m at work and I’m having to use the bathroom every 15 minutes. Luckily, I now have a laid back job that allows me to use the restroom whenever I have to. My old job wasn’t that accommodating. If you have this condition, I want you to know that you’re not alone and you don’t have to stay quiet about it. You don’t have to hide who you are. It’s okay to let people know around you, in case you do have a flare up one day. Sometimes, like today, I feel so bad that I’m just drained. And all I wanna do is sleep. Not sure how to end this post... but I’ll be off work soon and resting with my baby. ♥️♥️♥️
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