So, I happened to be browsing through some of my old photos and I came across this one. This picture was taken a little over two years ago. Life was a lot different then.
It was one of the most beautiful sunsets I had ever seen. I remember seeing a glimpse of it from afar and then running down to the beach as quick as I could to catch it before it faded into the horizon. Now, I wonder when I will be able to chase a sunset again.
September is Chronic Pain Awareness Month and I believe it is important to share our struggles. Chronic pain has changed my life in ways I could've never possibly imagined. Simple, every day tasks have now become difficult obstacles I have to learn new ways to overcome. Things as little as walking up stairs or taking a shower or driving a car can be extremely painful for me. There are days where I'm not even moving at all and I'm completely consumed by gut wrenching agony. Sometimes, I have to make the sacrifice of suffering through the pain just because I want to feel like a "regular" person again. There are so many occasions where I would have been the first to jump in, but now have to sit out. I have learned my limits on activities that many people don't think twice about doing.
Not only is this something that is physical, but the mental toll constant pain takes on you is unfathomable. You have to share every aspect of your life with something that is doing everything in its power to keep you from continuing on.
Chronic pain sufferers, you all are some amazing people. You wake up every day to a battle you are tired of fighting, but you don't give up. I know there are days where it's hard. It's so, so hard. Keep digging as deep as you can to push through.
There's more purpose to our lives than to always be in pain.
Next week, I will be heading back East to take better care of my health and to hopefully have that final moment where I can take a big, deep breath, let it out, and start my new life of being pain free. I don't know what's in store for me, but better days are coming. I can feel it.