Yesterday was a day of contrasts. I was thrilled in the morning, at news that two more embryos made it to freeze. But the infected sebaceous gland on my butt got worse, and more painful, despite the oral antibiotics.
Decided at 9pm to visit the local hospital walk in acute GP service. Waited 4 hours to be seen, unable to comfortably sit down, exhausted and worried that this is the crucial time for implantation post transfer, and would this compromise it?
Such rotten timing. Eventually had surgery to drain & remove, after they thankfully managed to get hold of my clinic on the out of hours number to check which types of anaesthetic they could use so soon after embryo transfer.
I now have a dressed and bandaged butt, need to go back tomorrow to have the dressing changed.
It's times like these that make me really have to call upon all the gentle, self love & determination that I've had to call upon to travel this TTC path, as a 39 year old single woman. Who longs to be happily married and a mum, just has never met her Prince Charming.
Sitting alone in the A&E waiting room, observing all the couples. Still having to give my mum's contact details as next of kin. Driving myself home after appointments. Having to explain all the time, that I'm not married, it's not Mrs on the forms.
I'm not going to wallow in self pity. I knew this path was going to be difficult, and I chose to walk it anyway. Because I know the prize will be worth it, and I'd regret not trying.
I know this journey is incredibly hard, even in a strong & loving relationship. We're all wonder woman warriors, and I'm blessed to have friends, fur-baby & family who all love me.
Today I'm just going to rest up in bed. Watch some of the great comedy programs that you amazing TTC sisters have recommended.
I'm praying that my two embryos are snug & ok after all of this. And that they happily & peacefully implant. #solomumbychoice #solomumma #ivfoct2017 #ivfjourney #ttclondon #ttcuk #ttcsisters